Love, is it an advantage or disadvantage?

People, near and dear ones are all the same. I am talking about taking advantage of softness, love expressed through tenderness and care.

I am wondering at this moment, how could my child lie to me about something serious important? It is not fear for sure. I have raised a person with a level of self-esteem which automatically reflects as confidence. I seriously do not understand. I asked myself when I ask this child of mine about how the day was? the reply comes without a moment`s hesitation, ``Day was fine Ma, it went off as usual. Nothing, but the same old routine.`` And then the car insurance goes up or almost not getting an insurance. Swinging between these two extremes is my poor husband who is wondering what is happening to his family? why is his only child so careless and bubbly headed? Maybe it is not as bleak as it appears. The child (he will remain one till we the end of our lives) who is a youth, says it was not as if he got a DUI!!!! Wow. He says it was a couple of fun loving friends that had opened bottles. Just before heading for the bar. What are we as parents? Regular I would say. Duty loving, no harsh words, respectful towards spouse as well as the family, children. Why do we have to deal with this? Life is tough for us both. We are working hard to pay our bills and deal with day to day challenges in our lives.

Society then? Is it taking liberties with the surroundings, blaming other parents? Does it make us feel good and lighten our burden? Parenting is a serious business and we are trying hard to do the job right...

I hope we as a society are able to raise our kids well...

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I question myself about why we give kindness and love sometimes without thinking if the person is deserving or not? I know love just happens, you just love someone, anyone because maybe it is a natural process of reaching out. But is it selfless most times, sometimes? Is it not always connected to something more deeper inside us? something we lack in ourselves maybe.

I imagine people who have not been loved, end up giving more of love (at least in some cases) because they want to experience what it is to receive love. And when we do not receive the double of what we gave, then there is bitterness, disappointment and frustration begins to set in. so then how do we love a person? Is there a right or a wrong way to love? Is there a right way and a wrong way to express kindness as well?

musty and earthy

crisp pages of a new book, the smell while flipping those pages are truly indescribable. I am fond of words and therefore fond of reading them, getting lost in them and dreaming of expressing the perceptions thus acquired.

there are tales about people, their success story, triumphs over situations they thought had lost to life...reading about them binds me, takes me on a journey I would have never imagined. truly it fuels my imagination, reading an connecting to books makes me alive and gives me immense joy.

Guess I am a little short on words today, I don;t seem to be expressing myself as well as I would have liked to.

thats all for today, maybe a better post tomorrow.

before I signs off, planning to write that story I had been promising myself.

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